Speak It Out

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Location: Manila, Philippines

The name Ardythe:good war (Anglo-saxon); flowering field (Hebrew); spiritual prosperity (Swedish); Norwegian goddess.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004


I SHOULD BE ON MY WAY TO QC AND I'M STILL HERE IN THE OFFICE! DAMMIT!!! I missed last week's practices for the Christmas party (for Singles for Christ this Saturday) so I decided that I'll attend this week. Just as I was about to close all programs in my PC, SOMEONE called and said that we should finish all the data. These should have been all filled out last week but he did not provide any update!
This would take hours!

My life is such an irony. So is my personality.

Time check: 10:11 pm my house is a few minutes away.

Bonifacio day

Today we commemorate the birthday of Andres Bonifacio, one of our National heroes. He was born in 1863. At 9, he was selling canes, fans, and hats to augment the family income. He also worked as a storekeeper and later as a messenger His parents have died and he has five siblings. In 1892, he founded the Katipunan and wrote the cartilla but he sensed that Emilio Jacinto's is more beautiful because it expressed a deeper love for the country and for his fellowmen. He did not have any formal education but he loved to read. Among these were Les Miserables, Noli Me Tangere, El Filibusterismo, and The Lives of the Presidents of the United States. Because of his humility, popularity and success, Emilio Aguinaldo had him and his brother Procopio were executed on May 10, 1897.

Andres Bonifacio is among my two greatest Filipino heroes.


Novenber 13-Alabang Town Center: I met my blocmate. She said there was a sale. Well, I bought a Dong-A gel pen. And we spent more time eating and window shopping. Of course we also browsed at National Bookstore, reminiscing our student days. Another blocmate was there and she was coaxed into treating us an Ice Monster. hehehe. We gushed over cute guys and admired a group of teenage boys who were of differend races yet bonded by friendship. During the evening we spent our time at Powerbooks. I went home at 8:30pm.

November 18-Robinson's Place, Manila: I treated my mom and my sister to a supper. Then we browsed for some books. I waited for one if my YFC sis because I'm returning her book. Too bad that she was too lazy to get out of their house alone. As were cooling ourselves, I people-watch, because I was facing the alleys. There was this cute foreign family, with a baby hanging from the dad. The baby is like in a knapsack and is very tiny. The son almost cried for no apparent reason and his mom talked to him and he was appeased immediately. We identified who lives in the tower. Talk about being rich yet without a real place to stay.

November 20-Metropolis: My blocmate said they were having a sale. The guards there should be sacked because I asked three of them if there's an establishment like Island Photo or Kameraworld and they said none. I soon found them though. While waiting for my passport pix, my blocmate poured her heart out.

November 20-Festival Mall: Sale! After all, Metropolis and Festival are Robinsons' malls. After window shopping for hours, I was able to find the perfect shoe! We asked the Customer Service where the pet shop is. I could remember that it was near an exit. He said that we turn right at the next corner. True enough, there was Penshoppe. hahaha. We returned and he said that he thought it was pet shop, and gave us the right directions. As we were walking away, my blocmate said: What a waste. He's so cute yet deaf. Before we ate, we met my YFC sis whose book I was supposed to return the other day. Then more window shopping. Too bad, I was not able to search for a good blouse.

Seems like I have been neglecting Southmall (15 minutes away from our house) for the past few weeks, to think that it is 4 minutes nearer than ATC from our house in Cavite and Manila, and 5 minutes nearer than Alabang. Next weekend, my schedule will be filled with Christmas parties and gimiks.

Cleaning up

I was arranging our room yesterday and I came upon a lot of papers and books. Then I saw this basket woven like a bayong (is it clear?) . I remembered who gave this but I forgot what it contained. A bottle. But what was in the bottle? I hesitated and thought more, thought harder. I am still unsure if it was honey. I forgot where it came from but I know who did.

I checked out some of my toys. I'm really not fond of stuffed toys. So I'm giving away all of them I only have three anyway. Two were Christmas gifts and one was a Valentine gift.

These cleaning up reminds me that I have to take down the "Winter in the Farm" painting when I already have a replacement. I want a more alive and colorful one. Malang's can do.

Friday, November 26, 2004

1997 turns into 2007

At your ten year high school reunion... by robbiewriter
Your school name
Your name
Your job will beActor
You will be worth$524,463
Everyone will think youare a snob
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Thursday, November 25, 2004


I've been chatting for years. I forgot the nick that I first used. This time I chat using two nicks. One is a good nick and the other is a nice nick. I chat in two rooms. In one, anyone can enter, and on the other, exclusive (you can only join upon invitation. I'm close with the people here.). This is simultaneous, so if I change my nick it applies to both rooms.

With the first one I do not get a lot of chatmates, yet I am able to discuss a lot of things in the room. These are interesting ones. We are persistent. We talk about the weather, the economy, the trends, and languages. There is a strict rule that we use English.

With the other nick, a get a lot more chatmates. Others are serious, like those that I chat with when I am using the other nick However, I get to chat with other kinds of people. These people do not chat in the main room. They chat with me privately. Out of courteousness, I entertain them. But later on they get to be boring. They ask me a lot of things. And they type things that should not be typed. If you know what I mean, they discuss about cybersex. And it bores me out. I am not interested in this. One of them (ho is not actually one of them,just a friendly chat) even said the women from the Philippines like it very much, to engage in sexual activities (actual and via the net). I tell them not all, and he continued to ask why are there a lot of ladies (he used ladies) outside of the club. I tell them they are hookers. You got to educate this people. I think that FHM has something to do with this. Oh how I hate Asia Agcaoili even when she was just a contender in Single (and more despise when she won). If you are a Filipino then you know what is going on in the entertainment industry. Recently she defended FHM about making our beloved country the haven for such activities. Then she apologized but WTF!? The damage has been done.

I do not generalize and these people come from different countries. Of course not all my chatmates are like that. Some are serious. Even in private. I already know some of my chatmates. I have met them and these are the Filipino ones. And I can say that we display decency in the chat room.

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

The Mannequins have Moved

I remember that my mom and I (and later my younger sister) go to COD Cubao to watch the moving mannequins. The show lasts for half an hour. Then another half hour and another show. I think there are three shows in a night. This was really fascinating. My favorites were:
the angel announcing to the sheperds the birth of the Messiah (imagine the angel getting down from the highest floor and its wings are spreading and closing)
Santa Claus in his sleigh crosiing from the left to the right part of the building.

Every Christmas season we would go here and then proceed to Fiesta Carnival.

Setback: there were news that a lot of people are pickpocketed because the people are on the street and they look up to the show along the wall of COD.

I cannot recall when these shows halted.

Now they are back and they are in Greenhills. I look forward to another Christmas of enchantment.

Hair Care

A lot of people spend a lot of money to maintain their crowning glory. Yet, these chemical treatments are what makes the hair go brittle and lose their shine.

My hair length varies friom the middle of my ears up to the area between my shoulders and waist.

When I was a child, my mom shaved my hair. She told me it was too thin. After that it was better. I use mild shampoos. These are commercialized ones. One is a baby shampoo. No kidding. The other is a regular one but I dilute it with water because some ingredients can be harmful for the scalp and hair. This is one of the reasons why some go bald. Of course I comb it whenever I feel that the need arises. I do not apply gel or any cream. My aunt said that coconut milk is good for the hair. This lets the hair maintain its natural color, thus reducing, if not preventing gray hair.I have not tried this yet but sometimes I apply baby oil or coconut oil.

About haircuts, it is definitely a plus if you have a favorite hairdresser. Sometimes the hair can be finicky.

Avoid doing harsh things to the hair like too much exposure to the sun or blowdrying it. If there is a need to blowdry, make sure that the blower is at a distance from your scalp. In this manner, you can also avoid the excessive heat emitted by the blower.

Remember: Natural is more beautiful.
Crazy dream: Guess what. =)

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Faye San Juan

Church group apologizes, says whiz kid story not true

Updated 01:26am (Mla time) Nov 13, 2004
By Blanche Rivera, Volt Contreras
Inquirer News Service

Editor's Note: Published on page A1 of the November 13, 2004 issue of the Philippine Daily Inquirer

FAYE'S brief fling with fame ended yesterday. And it ended with an apology no less from her church, which said her story of victory in Brisbane was not true.

Even earlier, the Department of Science and Technology also shot down her claim when the Inquirer began probing Faye's seemingly moving story.

Only 12 and a Grade 6 pupil from Quezon City, Faye Nicole San Juan, her mother Cathy and their church, the Bread of Life Ministries (BOLM), had told local media -- including the Inquirer -- that she had won first place in a competition in Brisbane, Australia, in September dubbed the International Science Quiz Net.

Bread of Life said in a letter to the Inquirer yesterday that it had conducted an investigation into the matter and would issue a public apology soon.

"We have determined that the story is not true," it said in the letter issued in the name of Rev. Sharon Valencia, Associate Pastor of the BOLM.

<>"Our heart goes out to a child like Faye whose mother is in deep emotional problems, the letter added.

Valencia, in a talk with the Inquirer, said that Faye's mother appeared to be the one who thought up the entire story of her daughter winning the quiz bee.

Faye did not answer calls to her mobile phone yesterday, and her mother was out of the house when the Inquirer tried to reach them for comment.

A certain Menchee, who said she was Faye's aunt, said Cathy was at the Fatima College where she claimed to be studying nursing. She said Faye was still in school.

The DOST said it had tried "to validate the claims" made by Faye and her mother.

"'Unfortunately, the information we have gathered from various sources, including our professional counterpart in Australia, do not support the claims of Faye and her mother," said a faxed statement signed by Ester Ogena, director of the DOST's Science Education Institute (SEI).

Faye a no-show

Ogena said her agency also invited the San Juans through Arnel Salgado, the principal of St. James College, Faye's school in Quezon City, "to present valid proof of the girl's awards."

Faye had also reportedly won a Best in Physics Award in Sydney and landed in the Top 5 in a math contest in Indonesia.

"However, Ms San Juan declined the invitation," Ogena said.

"Although the SEI-DOST would like to give Faye the recognition befitting an outstanding young achiever in science and mathematics, we are constrained by the fact that her story as presented in the media lacks merit in terms of valid proofs and the absence of any indication that the competitions cited truly exist," Ogena added.

DOST never approached

In an interview, Science and Technology Secretary Estrella Alabastro said the San Juans did not give a reason for declining her agency's invitation for an interview, which had been set for last Wednesday.

Alabastro said it was Salgado who relayed the message that the San Juans couldn't come.

"I don't want to draw any inference on that," Alabastro said, when asked what she would make of the San Juans begging off.

She also clarified that the DOST was "never approached at all" by the San Juans for assistance concerning their supposed Australia trip at the time when they claimed they were refused help by government officials here and abroad.

She stressed this point, noting that "we (the DOST) are the ones being maligned" by those who heard Faye's story and thought the DOST was among the agencies that turned down the San Juans' supposed request for support.

Tale of travails

Faye's story has been circulating on the Internet, featured in media reports including a frontpage story in the Inquirer last Tuesday, and backed by the Bread of Life Ministries, a Christian fellowship of which the San Juans are members.

According to the San Juans, Faye bested 56 other students all over the world in the Brisbane tilt. On the way to and during competition, though, mother and daughter -- by their own accounts -- met a series of mishaps before reaping success.

They said they were robbed of a piece of luggage at the hotel in Australia, the supposed suspect being a fellow Filipino who purportedly befriended them on the plane and offered them help in finding cheap lodgings.

This forced them to pawn a newly bought pair of shoes and old winter clothes just to have cash for food and hotel, they had said.

Validating Faye's claim

Lacking money for transport, their story went on, they walked for 2 kilometers to the contest venue. But they still won -- they said -- the "Most Creative Booth" award, a side event to the science contest, using as decor the Filipiniana costume they had brought along.

Ogena said that the DOST had a "validation procedure" in place "to verify awards received by individuals for competitions which are not coordinated by the (Science Education) Institute."

The department had been alerted to Faye's story and did the countercheck "in line with the agency's mandate to support, nurture, and recognize talents in science, mathematics and technology," Ogena said.

"We had no information about the contest," Alabastro said. "Even the Australian Embassy had no information. We really do validation so we can give appropriate recognition (to the child achievers); we even bring them to Malaca–ang."

No records at airport, DFA

An immigration officer at the Ninoy Aquino International Airport said that the names Cathy and Faye Nicole San Juan did not appear in their computer departure records last Sept. 17.

He said that unless they used different names in their passports and tickets, the San Juans could not have left the country on that date.

The names of the San Juans also did not appear in their departure records from September to November, the officer said.

Officials at the Department of Foreign Affairs also said Faye and her mother had not applied for passports.

"We have not received an application for passport with those names. Our data don't show it," foreign affairs spokesperson Gilberto Asuque said, referring to their computer database.

The Philippine and Japanese embassies in Sydney, Australia, have also no record that the San Juans ever sought assistance from them during their "difficult moments," officials said.

"The consulate in Sydney is always ready to extend assistance provided they call, either to the police or the Filipino community. We have not received any call. How can we extend assistance to them?" Asuque said.

"There was no call. If the police requested assistance, we were ready ... We will extend assistance provided we were made aware of it," he added.

No such case

Cathy had lamented that she and her daughter had sought help from Filipino officials in Australia, but they were too busy to help.

The staff of the Australian Embassy in Manila declined to say if they had issued visas to the San Juans, saying visa applications were "private information."

"We have no such case," Shuhei Ogawa, spokesperson and second secretary of the Japanese Embassy in Manila, said when asked if the Japanese foreign ministry had any record of the San Juans seeking assistance at either the Japanese Embassy in Sydney or consulate in Brisbane.

He said that if the San Juans had indeed called the Japanese Embassy in Sydney for assistance, they would have been referred just the same to the Philippine Embassy there.

Faye had claimed that after she won the contest, she skipped the awarding ceremony because she and her mother had to call the Japanese Embassy for assistance.

The BOLM's letter of apology will be read in all services of all Bread of Life outreaches in the country. The church has more than 20 outreaches in Luzon alone.

With reports from Margaux C. Ortiz and TJ Burgonio

This is how the story circulated:

"He who can take no interest in what is small will take false interest in what is great." John Ruskin

Jasmine Trias visited the Philippinesvery recently. Everyone was agog waiting to welcome her. The excitement was remarkable as the media and many of our "kababayans" flocked to the airport to see her. This scenario is typical of Filipinos. Sadly, it reflects our country's misplaced priorities. Contest of the Mind. Another young girl came back to the country just a couple of weeks ago. Her name is Faye (not her real name for very sensitive reasons). Unknown to her countrymen, this eleven year old girl brought honor to the Philippines. She represented the country in the Intercontinental Science Quiz Net in Australia. Out of 57 countries represented, Faye garnered First Place for the Philippines. Germany came in second while the United States came in third. In start contrast to the hooplah extended to Jasmine Trias, Faye's arrival did not make any noise. Not a peep.

In an earlier competition, "Mathematics for the Young Asians" in Indonesia, Faye also came out in the Top Five. But just like the Australian event, this feat did not receive any recognition in our country at all.

Our interests seem to be set on other "priorities." We are more interested in promoting celebrity guests instead of educational and intellectual pursuits. Indirectly and quite obviously we are teaching our children that development of the external image takes priority over educational achievement. Faye's story is inspiring. She comes from a broken family. Her father falsely claimed that he was unmarried when he married her mom. When her mom found out, she decided to raise up her daughter

Despite the difficulty, Faye in no way used it as an excuse for complacency in her studies. In grade school, she was a consistent honor student. She took every academic requirement as a challenge. And she delivered. At one time, she submitted a project thesis in Australia that won "The Best Physics and Science Award". The award qualified the Philippines to be one of the top 10 countries that would compete in Australia,
among the 57 countries that joined.

Considering her family's financial constraints, she and her mom asked help from our government for their trip to Australia to claim the "Best Physics" award and to join the Science competition. They saw this challenge as a rare opportunity offered to Faye and her country, considering that only two Asian countries qualified - Japan and the Philippines. Unfortunately, our government had other priorities. Mother and daughter then tried to ask help from individual senators and congressmen. All turned them down except for one who was willing to help, on condition that Faye should give public credit to the senator for supporting her even in the earlier competitions she joined. Out of integrity, the mother could not accede to this arrangement. Thus no outside help was found. Faced with this situation, Faye and her mom took out all their savings and went out of their way to secure by themselves the additional finances needed. The only driving force behind them was their desire to give honor to God and to the Philippines. With the little resources they had, they went to
Australia on September 17, 2004 for the competition. They claimed the trophy and cash award for the "Best Physics" thesis Faye submitted in Sidney and then flew to Brisbane for the quiz competition.

No kababayan welcomed them in Australia except for a kind Filipina they met in the plane who assisted them. As they were checking in at a hotel, the "kind" Filipina who volunteered to help them disappeared taking with her Faye's and her mother's bags, passports, and plane tickets. At that point, they literally had nothing left except for the few pieces of clothes and their faith in God. They had to sell the extra clothes left to be able to buy food. In need once again, they sought help from some of the Filipino officials in Australia but to no avail. Oddly, the Filipino officials there were too busy with other priorities, not minding to help a young girl and a mother who had no other desire but to bring honor to our country. Given a budget for only a one night stay at the hotel, mother and daughter had to check out the following day. Leaving their luggage on deposit and without money for transportation fare, they
decided to walk two kilometers to the competition venue on their native Filipino
costumes.If walking a two kilometer distance was bad enough, how much more would be walking the distance on their native costume along the highways of Australia!

Upon arrival at the competition site, Faye and her mom were very surprised when they discovered that the delegates from each of the other countries were well supported by a band, a cheering squad, and a flag, while Faye only had her mother and the anxiety of lost passports and plane tickets. Worse, representatives of each country were
required to decorate their booths.With only the three-piece costume they had on, Faye and her mom were even more surprised when the organizing committee awarded their booth as "The Most Creative" booth.

In the early part of the competition, Japan, Brazil, and Spain were eliminated. As the only Asian country left to compete against six Western nations, the Philippines was cheered on by Japan. Faye was encouraged by her Japanese cheering squad, but in her heart, how she wished that she had her own countrymen to cheer her on. When Faye finally won first place and Philippines national anthem was being played, she prayed silently thanking God for making her a Filipina. Despite all the painful experiences she had with her country, her priorities did not waver. A Japanes diplomat was the one who helped Faye and her mom to secure temporary pass so they could return to the
Philippines. The money they won was just enough for their fare back home and their temporary passport. When Faye was relating this story before a crowd, she said, "Let us love our nation, for nobody else will." Faye did not allow her painful experiences to tear down her loyalty to her country. She is not a celebrity but a servant out to serve her fellow Filipino.

A Small Way to Greatness.Our concept of leadership in this country is pitifully skewed. We mistakenly think that leadership is about "lording" it over other people. Christ corrected this distorted thinking when he said, "You know that those who are regarded as rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their high officials exercise authority over them. Not so with you, instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all -Mark 10:42-44

Sadly, we are far from the precept of this truth. It is no surprise then that we have a dearth of real leaders in this country-leaders who would set the nation's interests above their own. In the same way, our concept of citizenship is damaged. Those seeking for social good for themselves are never willing to grant the same good to others. Hence it is common for us hear stories of Filipinos who take advantage oftheir fellow citizens. We want to be served, but we are unwilling to serve.We dream of becoming like Jasmine Trias. We want our children to be like her. We would rather spend on things that would make us look good instead of things that would make us grow in character. We prefer stardom glitter over service-oriented endeavors. Quite the contrary, Faye spend sleepless nights studying to win the competition because she knows her priorities. Unlike Jasmine Trias, Faye did not receive a hero's welcome when she came back, but, young as she is, she keeps calling on Filipinos to love thePhilippines because every Filipino is a valuable gift of God. Life, really is not a matter of intelligence but a matter of setting our priorities right. The question is, what's our focus on "grand" things that make us superficial or on simple things that lead us to greatness? Faye's story reminds us all to look within ourselves. This eleven year old girl could have complained to the media, but she did not. She went out
of her own small way to bring greatness to this land. Right priorities grant us wisdom. When properly set, priorities point us to the right people we need to invest in, the right use of our energy, the right resources to draw from, and the rightendeavors support. From the words of Faye's mother, " We all wanted to win, but success is not measured through by merely winning. It is measured through our hearts,if it is truly attuned with God all the time. It is all that really matters for we have only an Audience of One. Whatever we have achieved, big or small, remember one thing: it is for God and God alone. The King of the Kingdom of a higher world.

I received this email on October 28, 2004. I did not pass it on. I know there is something fishy. In the first place, why would she omit her real name? Although I was awed that she won first place in Australia and fifth in Indonesia. Her location was not even mentioned, despite the fact that we are a populous country and where would we find her? And why would the government turn her down? Even those who are well-to-do are supported by the government, and they do it not for fame. About the congressman who was willing to support her, the name should have been mentioned because it will bring shame to him. Walking two kilometers is fine too. A booth? Well, they should have been informed that there was a booth design contest. And their costumes alon would never win a Most Creative Booth award. Never. And no I don't think that she thanked God that she was a Filipina when she won. I am more into whining and full of pride, like "why they did not help me? I'll show them who am I." It also said that the money they won was just enough for the trip back home. Huh? Other citizens of the world helped her and her fellowmen did not? She must be crazy! If this is a world-wide competition, it could never be finished in one day.

Take a look at what Patricia Evangelista has to say.

Friday, November 19, 2004

I Hope It's You

By Entwine

Are you real or are you a dream
Are you true, or not what it seems
Cause i've been there before
Don't wanna hurt my self no more oh no no

Someone who feels for me
Who's constantly inlove with me
And cares for me
Someone who won't say goodbye
Someone Who can change my life
I hope it's you, I hope it's you

Will you stay, or will you leave
Shall i doubt, or shall i believe
Cause i've been there before
Don't wanna hurt myself no more oh no no

Someone who feels for me
Who's constantly inlove with me
And cares for me
Someone who won't say goodbye
Someone Who can change my life
I hope it's you, I hope it's you

How will i know
If you're gonna be here tomorrow
Tell me baby how can i say
When there's no other way
But to give you my heart, my love
I'm trusting from this time
Baby don't break my heart

Someone who feels for me
Who's constantly inlove with me
And cares for me
Someone who won't say goodbye
Someone Who can change my life

Someone who feels for me
Who's constantly inlove with me
And cares for me
Someone who won't say goodbye
Someone Who can change my life
I hope it's you, I hope it's you

This song is the Mellow Touch's ID (94.7 FM)

Wednesday, November 17, 2004


Supposedly holidays are fun. They really are. But when you have clients pestering you for their shipments, I sometimes wish that only the very important holidays be there. On the other hand, for the beneft of all, everyone will not have to work, unless you are in a hospital, fire station, police station, and those stuff which require people. In malls, well of course they gotta be open too. But with factories, opf I wish they would, unless it is foof that they are making.

Meanwhile I will continue to receive calls and emails by makulit clients until tomorrow. Oh for goodness's sake!

Orange day

I did not notice it until I went outside, walked a little to get to work.
Then it occured to me:
I am wearing an orange blouse. Well it is checkered with yellow lines. This blouse is really cute and cool. Sleeves? 3/4.
Then I noticed that my lunch bag, bought when Bicol region was featured in WOW Philippines last September, had orange as the predominant color, though it also has pink and violet.
Next was my hanky. I am particular my my hankies so I stick to one brand because of the feel. Yup, it is pink, but it is also checkered woth white lines and yellow ones and of course, orange.

No, orange is not my favorite color. It's just one of those days when my wardrobe becomes one color coordinated. I have no idea why.

And for the guys, the reason why girls take a long time to do shopping is that we want the best of everything. They gotta look and feel good. They should also be within our budget. And when there are lots to choose from, decisions must be made. No, I do not consider shopping as a sport. I want it done as soon as possible.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Letter to XXX

Dear Xxx,

It has been a long time since we last saw each other. More than two years. Yet I know that you still have not let go. I am happy with my life now. But sometimes it makes me wonder how are you. I mean, our friendship and more than that was beyond comparison. Was.

Please learn to forgive me and yourself. I never meant to hurt you in anyway, and I am sincerely sorry for that. I know that you do not have the courage to explain things the way you want. Nevertheless, I want you to be at peace.

I hated you so much when I gave you that letter. Even worse when you acted immaturely. I believe that sometimes fate was on our side when there are times that we could have seen each other, but either you or I was not there. And last summer, I wanted to rebuild our friendship. Even just that. I know I failed, for you never responded. More so, you have did all the things you could to put walls in our communication lines. You blocked my email addresses, you put my number in the ignore user mode. For the latter, I have no idea that exists, but I stopped anyway. Oh, and you should not forget that I sent you messages through friendster and tried to add you too, but that did not work out. I think you have blocked me (again).

We are leading our own lives now. Please do not live in the shadow of our past. Of couse I want you to be happy too. I am not selfish, you know. Most of all, I want you to be honest.



Friday, November 12, 2004


This is how my desktop looks like.

The cast of Once and Again (clockwise):
Jeffrey Nordling- Jake Manning
Sela Ward- Lily Manning
Bill Campbell-Rick Sammler
Julia Whalen-Grace Manning
Ever Carradine-Tiffany
Susanna Thompson-Karen Sammler
Evan Rachel Wood-Jessie Sammler
Meredith Deane-Zoe Manning
Marin Hinkle-Judy Brooks
Steven Weber-Sam Blue
Shane West-Eli Sammler

I watched this on RPN 9. Sadly, the story has ended. Yup, I have been seeing Shane West long before A Walk to Remember.

(This is my third post for this item. I have been trying to post it properly. )

Games, Programs, Celsus

For the past few days I have been trying to restrain myself from posting about Celsus. I guess he deserves to be famous. Go Cel! Only the chosen few can qualify in the Topcoder competition and being interviewed for Inq7.

For the others, I added his blog to my links.

Thursday, November 11, 2004

I 'm In

I now have a Gmail notifier! I got the idea from Nikki. I was hoping before that they have that thingie like YM or MSN messenger. Now I have all of them!

(One setback though. My PC is restricted to things like YM or MSN messenger and even Chikka. Bad PC! That is why my YM status is always I'm on SMS. And I can't use them here in the office.)

1638hr Sheeesh. My default browser is IE and I can't launch gmail from the taskbar...

Can you park?
I have been seeing circles and squares for the past few months.

Wish List

It's 43 days before Christmas. I have been thinking of posting this for a few days. Well, there's no harm if I do...
  • Backstreet Boys albums
    • Backstreet Boys (1997)
    • Backstreet's Back (1998)
    • Millenium (1999)
    • Black and Blue (2000)
    • Chapter One
  • Avril Lavigne
    • Let Go
    • Unknown
  • Michelle Branch albums
    • Broken Bracelet
    • The Spirit Room
    • Hotel Paper
  • Vanessa Carlton album (Be Not Nobody)
  • Celine Dion albums
    • One Heart
    • New Day Has Come
    • All the Way
    • Au Couer Du Stade
    • These are Special Times
    • S'il Suffisait D'aimer
    • Let's Talk ABout Love
    • Falling into You
    • Gold
    • Gold vol. 2
    • D'eux /The French Album
    • The Colour of My Love
    • Celine Dion
    • Dion Chante Plamondon
    • Unison
    • The Best Of/Vivre
    • Incognito
  • The Corrs albums
    • Borrowed Heaven
    • Talk on Corners
    • Absolute Interview
    • Forgiven Not Forgotten
  • RiverMaya albums (yes I have their first album Rivermaya)
    • Atomic Bomb
    • Trip
    • It's Not Easy Being Green
    • Between the Stars and Waves (new!!!)
    • Tuloy ang Ligaya
    • Alab ng Puso
    • Free
  • The Nutcracker Suite
  • Pastoral Symphony
  • Swatch skin. The last time I checked, this was around Php3,500.00
Shucks, the time on my PC is 11:38am. Been busy with other stuff, like work.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

Gmail invites

Anyone can have this! Pardon me but I was not able to change the first and last names. Don't worry, these are my first and last names anyway. You can edit them so that you'll be able to create your own gmail account. Enjoy 1000MB of gmail!


Thursday, November 04, 2004

Goal...where art thou?

I was very happy that DOST-FNRI texted me regarding my application as a Science Research Specialist I. That government agency has been one of my dreams even while I was in college. I imagined that as a stepping step to be world-famous, as well as to contribute to the problem of poverty, malnourishment, and illiteracy. Health is one of the priorities that is taken for granted. (I was qualified as an SRS I in 2003 for the 5th National Nutrition Survey. I finished the training but due to health reasons, I did not pursue it. Therefore, I submitted another set of requirements last January to be among the applicants for the main office.)

I got the SMS message just before 11am today. My first thought was: is this it? The moment that I have been waiting for? Then I taught about the tax refund that my company gives at the end of the year. SFC West B1B also flashed in my mind. Plus all the comforts that I currently have now. But what the heck? This is what I have been waiting for all these years? Those things will not matter anymore. And I will not have to pay for the place where I will stay, since that is our home. Then the person from the other line asked if I am still connected with the Commission of Elections. I told her I'm working for TLSC. She inquired if this is a private company. I replied yes. She further explained that the government has this order to hire employees who are currently connected with other government agencies. She said a few more words but I was not listening anymore. What I remember was that if I know other dietitians in the government who is willing to work for them, and that in the future, if the government will let go of that policy, then they are looking forward to working with me.

As I put down the phone, I felt poignant, down-hearted, and upset. Perhaps, not now. Perhaps God has other plans...

To the hell with this sick, rotten, and corroded government system! Sometimes, life sucks.


Insanity Test
Your problem is ...Well what ISN'T your problem?
Will you ever be cured? (8) - Outlook good. - (8)
Just how crazy are you? - 7%

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Your problem is Multiple Personalities
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Your problem is Multiple Personalities
Will you ever be cured? (8) - My sources say no. - (8)
Just how crazy are you? - 56%

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Got these from Jem

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Korean films

It seems that a lot of my friends really liked My Sassy Girl. I like it too, though I only watched it once last summer. I mean, a relationship like that is really fun, and since Gyun Woo is soooo darn nice, I can take it with him. But what is the girl's name? It was never mentioned. In some ways, I am a little sassy. I don't ask people if they wanna die. When they litter, I stare at them until they melt. Or sometimes I tell them off. With undisciplined children, their parents are to blame. I hate it when they are noisy during the mass so I look at their parents with a little depression on my face. Tsk tsk tsk...so it seems.

Then during the weekend I watched another Korean film. My sister said that Sassy girl is laos and The Classic is in. How fate can intervene in our lives is such a magic. It was a very wonderful film, Moved me to tears, honest. I think thrice. (Sassy made me cry only once.) Gosh, if the guy was as handsome as Sangmin, I'll give him a yes!

Well, this is me. Tough girl. Show me a sad film and my defenses crumble...

Wow, three posts in a day. My weekend has been a wonderful one.


Presenting the Ten Outstanding Students of the Philippines:

Alexander Edward C. Drilon, cum laude, Medicine, University of the Philippines, Manila
Rockwell Grey S. Bennett, cum laude, Physical Therapy, Riverside College, Bacolod City
Mark Lester L. Altoveros, magna cum laude, Physics, University of the Philippines-Los Ba–os
Charlotte Kendra G. Castillo, summa cum laude, Physics, Ateneo de Manila University
Primitivo Paypon Jr., summa cum laude, Biology, University of St. La Salle-Bacolod
Jennifer L. Digaum, magna cum laude, Electrical Engineering, Mindanao State University, Marawi City
Karen Joy P. Nomorosa, summa cum laude, Computer Science, De La Salle University
Ruth Jade M. Canlas, magna cum laude, Chemical Engineering, Technological Institute of the Philippines
Jennifer P. Teves, summa cum laude, Psychology, Assumption College
Jose I. Bas Jr., magna cum laude, Business Administration, Ateneo de Naga University
Lea Janice R. Sicat, magna cum laude, Elementary Education, St. Paul University, Dumaguete City